2015 has begun, can you believe we are already on day 2?! I’m still trying to get over this sickness, and since I’m home-bound for the remainder of the day, I decided what better way to spend a sick day then to reflect on 2014 and plan for the remainder of this year.
I’ve found lots of different things that I wrote early in 2014 outlining my goals for the year. I’m glad to say that I was able to knock down a few of the items on my list!
On December 1, 2013 I wrote:
Goals for 2014 – no particular order!
– Become COPE certified with TSFL
– enough financial freedom so pat doesn’t have to work overnights
– Become fitness instructor (PT v spin/body pump instructor tbd)
– Hit goal weight; transition to maintenance correctly
– Run 1/2 marathon (The North Face endurance challenge – trail run)
– move to Talleyrand / cruise for anniversary
– Run 10 mile race in Bronx, NY
– run color run & muderella
– begin training for NPC bikini competition!👈yes… This is serious
At the time I was a health coach with TSFL and I had big dreams of working hard with the company and really developing my business.
On January 10, 2014, I wrote:
5 lifestyle events I’d like to experience and what habits to get there
1. Run half marathon in May
2. Becomes Les Mills Body Pump instructor
3. Go paddle boarding in the Pacific Ocean this summer
4. I want to reach my goal weight
5. Hike the Appalachian trail (The NY part) with my husband and dogs without any of us dying from lack of ability/oxygen/water/nutrition lol
– train properly for half marathon, and don’t give up
– work on core strength
– go to body pump 2-3x per week and continue to get strong so I can successfully get certified
– re-read DYOH as many times as needed, keep in contact with my health coach/business mentor
– track food and monitor measurements and weight weekly by utilizing my fitbit as well as sticking to the 5&1 until I get to my goal and then transition correctly!
This year was challenging, I started the year well into my second journey with TSFL and I was determined to “do it right” as you can see by my references to the plan both in December and January.
In February I drove down to Washington DC to do my initial instructor training for Body Pump (Les Mills) and began to falter a bit with my nutrition. I was working out so much that I began to have signs of exercise induced amenorrhoea (the absence of menstrual period due to excessive exercise and/or low body fat). My hormones became extremely imbalanced and I began dealing with a lot of health issues that were contraindicated with the low caloric diet and high intensity exercise that I was doing. My doctor advised me to stop working out so much – and to increase my food intake. My doctor didn’t know my history with binge eating, and advised me to increase my calories to at least 1400-1500 rather than the 1000-1200 that I had been on (I was usually close to 1000 even on days where I’d run 8 miles and practice Body Pump). I quickly began to binge eat, hide food, and fall back into old habits – consuming upwards of 2500+ calories at any given time. I made the decision to slowly back out of being a TSFL coach, slowly letting my clients “fall off” and for that – today I sit here, and feel that I did such a disservice to those people and feel terrible. The biggest problem that I had was that I became so engrossed in what i was doing, trying to figure out some sort of balance for myself, that all those that I was helping fell at the wayside.
It took a long time for me to really get a hold on my nutrition – I still struggle with it, a year later, and I’m sure I’ll struggle for the remainder of my life, but I feel that I’m in a better place – one where balance is happening day by day.
As I mentioned, it took awhile for me to get to a better place – still not perfect, just better. I contacted a bodybuilding/competition coach once I was able to figure out my hormones to the point where I wasn’t gaining 10 lbs every time I ate anything “off plan” and had high hopes to begin training for a competition. To my dismay the coach was more concerned with my overall health than helping me get to a competition – I know that sounds backwards, why would I be upset about this? – well, I am notoriously the person who “wants what I want” and “gets what I want” and when I didn’t get what I wanted I followed the plan half ass’d. Something that, sadly, took half the year to figure out, was that I need to trust the process and stop thinking everything needs to happen NOW. I wanted to compete – I thought that competing would “fix” my nutrition problems and allow me to train as much as I wanted. Boy was I wrong. When I fell into some financial issues and was no longer able to pay for the coaching that I wasn’t listening to anyway, I decided to go it alone – talk about wake up call.
Since the summer of 2014 I’ve been able to maintain my weight within 5lbs. I’ve managed to maintain a fairly clear head and continue to read about and watch videos about successful people in “the business.” I’ve learned that I can absolutely compete, but it’s not going to fix any of my food issues – so I better get my shit together before I even consider a competition!
So, last year I started the year with a list of goals, and this year I will do the same. Last year I vowed to become a certified Body Pump Instructor – which I have accomplished. I also wanted to run the 1/2 marathon which I did in May. I reached my goal weight, and then gained 25lbs back (boo). My husband still works overnights, and I still live in the same apartment, and as I bet you can expect – I didn’t become a COPE certified coach. I did however go to my first Veterinary conference in St. Louis, became an AFAA certified group fitness instructor, I went to the AIM 1 for Body Pump, and I have managed to open myself up and really be honest with myself with my fitness/health goals.
This year I want to take my goal setting to the next level
My 2015 goals are as follows:
– Run Spartan sprint
– AIM 2: Body Pump
– Elite Trainer status: Body Pump
– The NorthFace Endurance Challenge: 1/2 marathon (Bear Mountain)
– Travel to LA to visit Pat’s family & Katherine
– Visit Alycia and the babies at least twice this year
– Try crossfit – most likely fall in love, and figure out a way to afford the local box
– MOVE OUT OF THIS APARMTENT THIS SUMMER
– Travel to Ohio and see Robyn & Joe (only fair since they came to visit us last year!)
– Financial freedom (this will probably be on my list every year)
– Become certified in another Les Mills program: GRIT or CxWorx
– GO TO THE BEACH WITH JACKIE AT LEAST ONCE THIS SUMMER!
– Read a new book every month!
– Every time I want to binge, STOP, drink water, wait a half hour, and redirect myself to healthier options that don’t involve food
For now that is where I will leave my 2015 goals…. As my goals are forever changing, I’m sure I will continue to reflect on what I want out of 2015 as the year goes on. Although I still strive to enter into my first bodybuilding competition I’m not sure that I’m quite ready for that mentally. For now, I will continue to work hard, continue to push myself physically, and mentally, and work hard on my nutrition.