This morning I woke up at 5:30am without an alarm. My body has seemed to get used to these hours and even on my day off I’m up way before the rest of the world (well, a lot of it anyways). I got up pretty quickly this morning because, although I’m not working today, I planned to hit the gym early to get in my fasted cardio before the snow started! I was determined to get in 1 full hour on the stairmaster for the first time in who knows when! I didn’t want to rush, since for once I didn’t have to, so I was determined not to! When I got to the gym I had a rush of emotions run through me. I felt like I had to get it off my chest before I could successfully complete my task, so I sat there, in my car and recorded the sound you will hear in the video at the bottom of this post. Prepare yourself, there is foul language – and I’m sorry, but at 6:30 in the morning I really had no filter. The following is a compilation of photos chosen to demonstrate my journey – also, I hope it also illustrates that my journey has NOT been a straight line. I have gone from overweight, to skinny, to gain weight again to skinny again to gain weight and muscle. I’m not where I want to be, I’ve got a long way to go and a lot of healing to do.

I hope that by posting this honest moment that someone out there can realize that they are not weird, they are not the only person who struggles with this, and they too can find peace and strength.

Thank you in advance for taking the time out of your busy day to listen to and watch this very heartfelt and honest video.

please click the video below to view in YouTube

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Author: Suzanne